i have just been so pissed off latly that it's not even funny.  i have gone through all the drama @ skool and all the stress that i have been getting b/c of it and from other things 2.  my life has been so complicated ever since i went to my cousin's hous for a week all the way bac in august.  and of course it all has to do with a boy, but i don't want ot get into it cause i will never stop.  my social life has just been getting hard.  i don't know how to tell this boy that i don't want to talk to him any more.  it will prolly hurt me more than it will hurt him,  or in fact i don't think he will care.  my summer will be like hell for me.  i jsut don't want to start world war III.  but if i hold my anger in against this person for so long i just might explode and once i start talking i will never stop.  put it this way my summer will be alot differentfrom the past summers.  i'll prolly end up staying @ home more over the summer.  or to my friends house that lives around here.  im just so sick and tired of everything that has happened to me and i know for a fact that more stuff will prolly happen to me.  there r only like maybe 10-15 friends that i have that went throught or is going through the same thing that i am.  my life has just been so hectic.  there is only one thing that i want to happen to me and that is to get a boyfriend that will treat me right and not break my heart.  this person i met over the summer who i thought loved me doesn't eve ntalk to me anymore like he used to.  i just don't want to talk to this person anymore but i just don't know how to.   the more i don't talk to him the more pissed off i get.  and the less i talk to him.  the less i concentrate on anything that i do.  see i don't know now how to stop typing.  i guess wen i have something on my mind i guess i just start and don't know how to stop.  every song that i listen to makes me think of him and i don't want that to happen but it just does.  i just can't stop listening to music cause then my life will completely change.  i just don't know how to even stop thinking about him.  i have so many memories that it's not even funny.  the biggest one i have and will never forget is the day i went to dorney park with my 2 cousin's with him and their other friend.  i had so much fun that day that i forgot every single guy i ever liked.  i have never ever typed this much before.  i gues i really had alot on my mind.

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